Well, it’s been a few years since I’ve written anything and I owe you a huge apology. This isn’t clickbait to get you to read, it’s the truth I’m really sorry.
I’ve gone through a lot of changes since I ran the Daily Transformations page on FB. Facebook took it down and along with the page, went 300K followers. To smack my ego even harder, all the likes on my blog posts were set to zero. This is a blogger’s worst nightmare- social credibility set to zero. That was a huge ego hit but alas, I survived.
So why did I stop writing?
I had a major wake-up call. I’m talking M A J O R and it scared me.
The sick realization that I had led many many women around the world astray with my teachings, hit me hard, and yes, while the 40-Day Personal reboot helped a lot of people, myself included, it was built on a lot of new age false knowledge.
But let me back up a bit.
I was raised in the Midwest with every Midwest stereotype you can think of, including my values, but after moving to Boulder, Colorado years ago, I slowly turned away from those values.
I turned to Yoga and Nature for my peace of mind. Church seemed outdated and boring and those same people inside the church weren’t all that impressive outside the church, so I quit going. Yoga led me to Eastern spiritual teachings and those teachings led me down the path of Shamanism and Buddhism, Earth-based spirituality and plant hallucinogens, attending women’s circles and full moon rituals, eventually finding myself not even thinking about God anymore.
I grew up praying in my young mind as though Jesus were my personal friend, but after a few years of living in Boulder, I was suddenly depending on “finding my inner power again, reclaiming my power as a woman, manifesting what I needed, and seeking hidden knowledge that seemed to solve the mysteries of the Universe”. If you’ve gone down that rabbit hole yourself, you know how one thing leads to another.
Then I became sick. The kind of sick that knocks you flat and whispers in your ear that this might just be it. I created a will and for the first time in a long time, asked God for help. It had nothing to do with my positive mindset or visualizing what I wanted as so many new-age teachers had suggested, but instead, everything to do with being down on my knees surrendering, and asking for a miracle.
And, I received it.
After that healing, I started to pray daily again and asked to have a relationship with Jesus. I became hungry for understanding the Biblical teachings I had grown up with and at breathtaking speed, my blinders flew off. Suddenly everything made sense.
Every New Age teaching that seemed to be so mystical and magical, I was finding in the Bible. The power of our thoughts and words, inner peace…. forgiveness, etc.
But the new age movement left one important factor out of all of their teachings: God. Instead, it taught that we are all powerful, essentially that we are mini Gods.
The darkness that hides behind those teachings is powerful and manipulative- evil and destructive. I realized that I didn’t know one person in those communities who seemed really happy in life. Instead, I watched them on a hamster wheel of self-improvement, self-realization, and self-mastery constantly striving to get through another “test of life”, trying to manipulate energies and create a life they might love.
None of that worked because the truth is, we are born in the image of God, we are forgiven for all our mistakes, and we have everything we need inside. We don’t need gurus or teachers, we need to reclaim our relationship with God.
There is so much more to tell here and perhaps there is a book looming, but this post is for two reasons only.
- To apologize from the deepest part of my heart to each and every one of you who read my works or took my programs. There was a lot of great information in those modules, but they were all based on “the Universe, Great Spirit, or Inner Self.” All false teachings. Only God can protect us and only God knows what is best for us. God empowers us and loves us, but no tarot card reading, psychic session, or magical Feng Shui tip can replace him.
- And to encourage you, if you think I’m crazy, to simply pray. Ask that you’re led in the right direction and simply wait with an open heart. You’ll see that a podcast or video will cross your radar. It might be a movie or a tv show like The Chosen, a book, or a phrase that comes to your attention- no one knows the mystery of how. Watch for signs. God is amazing and all we need to do is ask with an authentic heart. You don’t need me to convince you- simply ask to be led.
If you want to discuss this, I am always happy to speak with you. It’s the least I can do.
May God bless you on your path.